3.5 done

so i had my second squirt this morning. i feel so full of spermies it is weird. logically, and i know this isnt logical, but i cant think of a reason it shouldnt work. the ultrasound and opk test said it was perfect timing. the squirter said my cervix looked ready, the swimmers were EXCELLENT this time and i have two eggs that the doctor said would both release. we all know that even when the eggs are put in you already fertilized it just sometiems doesnt work. it is just so hard to process when someone is a control freak (and i am not admitting that, but who am i kidding). it is so hard to know that i have no way of changing the outcome other than what i have already done. my boss is like me. she went through i think 7 miscarriages, she is one child but was trying for a second. she did iui, she did ivf and it just never happened for her. she is a go getter, i mean she has her own firm and had her own succesful firm since she was 38. she said that this is the one thing she could not make work for herself and it was really hard to let go. she has stopped trying but i think she is still affected by it. it really sucks!

anyway, enough of that. we are thinking positive. go swimmers go!!!!! i would love a libra baby

bye