What is that!

So I am charting. I am trying to figure out if i am 1) Regular 2) do i even ovulate 3) what does a body really do when you bleed.
So i am charting. I take my temperature every morning at 5:55 a.m. ewww sucks but it is the only time that i know i can take it every morning. if i have to go to court i have to wake up at 6 am. so this is the only consistent time of the morning. sucks to be me!
i am also looking at my shall we saw spoogies. i know its gross, but its true. you have to look at your cervical fluid to see what it looks like to know if you are ovulating. who knew it was going to be like this. how do all those people have unplanned pregnancies? it seems so hard to get freakin pregnant!

anyway, the charting is going well, i am on the verge of my first charting ovulation. it is kinda freaky how excited i am to ovulate. its not like i am squirting this month. i just want to know that i do ovulate. i mean most people do. right? i get my period. i should ovulate. however, i didn't get my period for almost a year. and this getting my period thing just started about 2 years ago. so i guess i am a little freaked out that i don't ovulate. that the period i think i am getting is not a period at all, but my mind making me think i am getting a period. whatever, that is nuts, i am a nutty lady as A says every day.

nutty lady, that's me!

obsessive compulsive

so ever since A and i decided to have a pooper, i can't stop reading everything i can about it. every blog, every book, every everything. i am fascinated by it. i want it now. we have decided that we will start trying in october. A is in school and she will graduate in August, with a break starting in June. october will give us a chance to have a pooper when she has a break. at least in a perfect world if we get lucky and it happens on the first time. but from what i am reading, it only happens the first time when piggies fly.

i am trying to do everything i can to be the most fertile person in the world. i am also trying to do all i can to be the most aware person in regards to my fertility. temperature, ovulation kit, cervical stuffs... who knew about all this stuff. i mean i have been having my "friend flo" since i was 14 but i didnt really ever know what it was until know. how sad is that.

if i had my way we would start now. i want a pooper so badly. but i know that A would KILL me if i even asked. she is so stressed out with school and it is not the right time. october is good. it gives me a few months to chart and to completely obsess :)

so another big decision was made on the TTC front. A's brother D is going to be the donor. crazy huh. we all think of it the same, as DNA. A and I get to have a pooper that is actually one-half of each of us. It is pretty cool. Legally we are all set (i am a family law lawyer so i sort of know about this stuff) D just has to give his buddies to the doctor and we are all set. D also knows that he is not the daddy to the pooper, just an uncle. an uncle that gave us an amazing gift.

we also got a lot of loot from one of my co-workers. a stroller, car seat, high chair, a huge bag of clothes and this thing called a co-sleeper. anyone ever use this? we haven't decided if we are going to use this or not. it seems a little too "family bed" which i dont think i want. we shall see. i like a good bassinet.

anyway, we are on the way to pooperville. i just wish it was sooner. but we all know how time flies. sooner rather than later we will be squirting and life we will be so different.....