I am guilty

i am guilty of doing everything wrong during the 2WW. Every "sign" means something. I have twinges in my tummy, the baby is talking. I have twinges in my tummy, AF is coming. I feel sick, the baby is making me feel sick. I feel sick, AF is coming. I am tired, the baby is making me tired. I am tired, geez you are just tired! this is so freakin hard!!!!!

I have also done the unthinkable. I have tested starting on day 5. who does that? i love to torture myself i guess. i didnt test today, but i wish i had.....

My temp went up again today. What is my body doing to me? I swear it is doing all of this to set me up for a big ole dissappoinmtnet. If my charting is right, and i did get AF, i should start spotting tomorrow or the next day. I guess that will be a tell tale sign.... or could it be implantation spotting.... this system sucks!!!!

i have also been in a pissy mood today. not the same kind of mood i get in right before AF, i am pissy and dumb. I couldn't tell time last night. I swore my watch said 7:00 p.m. and i couldnt understand it b/c i was at a seminar that started at 7:00 p.m. and it had been going on for at least an hour. ummmm dumb dumb, i couldnt read the watch.

aaaccckkkkk

bye