catch up time i guess

hi there. i have been absent. absent from writing on my blog, absent from reading blogs. i just needed a break from thinking about baby stuff. i have been told by my doctors to hold off for a few months. to see how the new medication alters me, if it does. so far, nothing bad. i am a little less hungry, which is always good.

a quit her job, she had it for six months. she is in the middle of her thesis so it was not working out to work 50+ hours a week, go to school, and still have time to do her thesis. so she quit. that is another reason we are holding off, we are going to be a little broke the next few months. what can you do.

D is going to come down for a week and fix our bathroom. So nice of him. we are ripping out the tile and demolishing the sink and vanity and taking the mirror down. painting, and i think that is all. with him doing it, it is free labor! that makes me happy. while he is here, he is going to "drop some swimmers off at the pool" i know that is for poop, but it makes more sense for spermies.

i have been super busy at work, which is good. i have also been spending a lot of my time at my mother in laws to see emmet, the puppy. he is like my baby :) i can focus all my mothering skills/or lack thereof on emmet. he loves me :) unconditionally, so long as a i hold him and pet him and let him lick my face. it is nice. see pictures above. he is so cute!

i wonder if there is anything else....i dont think so... my friend who got pregnant on the first insemination she did at home is having her baby shower soon. joy.

bye

Bad blogger bad blogger!

i have been a bad blogger. slap my wrist! i have had a crazy month. shocking, but BFN. cried for a few days because i knew i had to make some big decisions. as i said in my last post so long ago, i had an eeg and they found nothing. according to my little british neurologist, i had to make a decision, baby or possible future seizures and no driving ever. what a fu**ed up choice that is! i knew there had to be another option. my friend and co-worker said he friend was epileptic (i guess that is what i am, so weird) and had a baby is now pregnant with her second baby. she emailed me her story. she was taken off meds for a while b/c she wanted4d to get pregnant. it was very bad, she had seizures and other stuff happened, not a good thing. her doctor said you can go on meds, a low dose, and you can get pregnant. she did and had a healthy baby. ummm what? could my neurologist have mentioned that? so i immediately went to our old friend, or enemy, google and looked it up. some meds are 90% safe for epilepsy control and baby makin. 90% seems better than sharp stick in the eye...keep reading amiechamie, find something better than 90%....so apparently there is this drug, lamictical (i could be wrong on the spelling) that is often prescribed for pregnant epileptics. you can supplement it with folic acid and vitamin K and it is a little more than 90% that your pregnancy will be perfect. in fact, i read that there are no cases of non-perfect pregnancies on lamictical. yipppppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

so needless to say, i started the drugs last week. they make you so freakin tired it is unbelievable. but i started driving again!!!!! i had not driven since February 6. i didnt realize how much i missed it.

so, we are moving forward. i skipped this last month, just ovulated actually i think yesterday. we will be going forward with next month!!! i need to get D on board and call my RE and tell him what is up. I havent called him since i told him about the seizure. it was just too much to deal with all at once. if next month works, will i have a december baby? yikes! another december event. this will be one that i can handle :)

OH so i was tagged! yay. IT is the book one.

Here are the rules:

1. Grab the nearest book of 123 pages or more.
2. Open it to page 123.
3. Find the first 5 sentences and write them down.
4. Then invite 5 friends to do the same.


I am at work, so this is going to be really boring. The nearest book, on my bookshelf at work is Alan Dershowitz letters to a young lawyer. this was one of the many new lawyer books i got when i passed the bar. boring as hell but they look good on my bookcase:

...Thomas had made up his mind about the fate of Roe before he arrived on the Court; without even discussing the issue with his law clerks, he decided that the case should be overturned. "there was no point in talking about Casey, " the source said. "there was no doubt whatsoever on which he was coming out. THere was no discussion at all." Thomas joined Justice Scalia's dissenting opinion, which urged that Roe should overturned"

SO that was a little more than 5 lines, but the writing is indented and i wanted to finish the thought.

since i am so belated in this post, i think everyone and their mother has been tagged. if not, you are it!

oh, and another thing, A and i have been puppy sitting these past 3 weeks. emmet, so cute! he has been coming to work with me and everyone in the office loves him. he seems to have forgotten the puppy pad idea though, he has been poopin everywhere he can! good thing he is so cute. i have to take him back tomorrow :( i am very sad and i know i will cry. we need to move somewhere that we can have a dog. our condo has a strict rule, no pets at all. assholes.

anyway, i am back, all drugged up and ready to get preggers!!

good luck to all those in the TWW. i have good feelings!!!

bye

huh?

so today is, I think, 14dpo. I am not really sure b/c i got that HCG shot and my symptoms were all wacky. I had cramps around day 7, temp drop, then no cramps and temp increase. i had cramps yesterday and a really bad backache. no spotting, no nothing. then today, no cramps. wtf!

can the hcg shot F*** up a normal cycle?

then i went to the neurologist. had an eeg. they found nothing, they have never found anything. he told me, basically, if i ever want to drive again i need to be on medication and if i want to have a baby, i cant be on medication. nice options.
i am going to try and find another neurologist that maybe specializes in pregnant epileptics who rarely have seizures.

bye

sucks ass!

so the insemination went well. the shot didnt hurt! yipeee. problem occured though. around 4 am i had a seizure. i have had three in the past - starting when i was studying for the bar exam. i havent had one since 2006, not on any meds anymore since we started TTC'ing. now this happens. just packs a whallop. the neurologist said that if i am not pregnant right now, i should stop for a while to figure out what is going on. i dont like that answer at all. there has to be a way. its not like i have them all the time, 4 in 32 years.

im just bummed. if it isnt one thing it is another. i have to think that this time worked because if not, it might never :(

surpise! iui time!

so i had quite a morning! got up, voted, went to pick up D from the airport. it is super day for him too! time to give more little guys. i had also scheduled an ultrasound as it was day 13 and i hadn't had one yet, i am trying to save money and not get one every few days. i go in and Helen says, um i think you are ready. i had one on one side that was 21 and one on the other that was 17. so much for upping the clomid! i see the nurse and she says, go across the street and get an hcg shot from the pharmacy and we will get started. ummm what a shot? nooooooo
the great thing about this was that we got to use live spermies. the doctor was very excited about this which made me happy. the bad news is that D missed his flight going home. i felt so guilty and nervous that i was not in the best state of mind during the procedure. D didn't care, which is nice. i hope he got on a flight by now!

so here we are again. back in the TWW. i think i read somewhere that if you get the hcg shot then you can test positive even if you are not pregnant. anyone know about that?

bye

head feels like it is under water (and aother pic of emmet)

i am sick. i have been sick since friday. fever, aches chills, cough, sinus infection, the works. i hadnt been outside once since friday at 5 until last night when A took me to the urgent care. i got anti-biotics. i hope this works. i had to come to work today. i have two appointments. the last one is at 1:30. then i am going home. i have court tomorrow which sucks even when you feel good. ahhhh nuts!

on to other things, i took my last 2 clomid pills. does anyone know if anti-biotics interferres with clomid? the urgent care doctor didnt seem to think so but i trust all of you more.


good news is i am going to see emmet this weekend!!!!

my friend got a little boston terrier. her name is joan. she is super cute and i am going to puppy sit her tonight! hopefully she will understand that i am sick and will take care of me

bye

cranky pill cometh

i took my first dose of the 100 mg of clomid. i can feel the crankiness emerging. poor A.