the chart of champions

so this is the cycle we are counting on. my temps are higher than they have ever been after ovulation. i wonder if you can will your temp high?

i threw up yesterday. i wonder if you can will yourself to throw up?

help, i think i am going crazy

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IUI #1

so it is done! the first of (hopefully) one IUI's is done and i survived. phew! it was a little more painful than i thought it was going to be. that damn speculum! i bet a man invented it.

i had some rather bad news right before i put my leggs up---- aparently D's sperm motility was not as feisty as we would have liked. i have to believe that it can work and did work or (holding breath) will work. it is too perfect of a situation for it not to work.

since the IUI (it was on Monday) I have had cramping, spotting, nausea, tiredness, crakiness and all in teh first two days! who wants to bet that is a little psychosomatic action going on there.

i found these test that you can try after 6 days. that would be on saturday. i am afraid of my hopes being shot if it is too early. how can that not be too early?

right now, i have twinges of pain in my lower tummy (or uterus i guess). i dont know if that is my period getting ready or little pooper getting settled. one can only hope!

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this is it

so this is the month. we are doing it this month. i can hardly believe it. i have the digital fertility moniter, the opk, the chart, the BBT. what more can i do? i hope nothing. i feel like i have done all i can to try and get this to work. it is almost out of my hands. it will be soon.

last week we went to disneyland with our friend and her two year old. the girl was so freakin cute. she was a dare devil! i pushed her into going on the roller coaster for kiddies. i thought perhaps i went too far, but she loved it! she said "again!" i was dying it was so cute. going with a kid is way different then going without a kid. it was a whole different disneyland. this weekend we are going with my bosses kid. she is seven. (we have passes so it is not like we are crazy going every week for s*hits and giggles, we need to get our monies worth!)

A is going out of town for a conference in october. i have this feeling it is when i will be testing if i am preggie. that is going to stress me out. but i can handle it. hopefully.....

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all we want

i am thinking the next cycle will be the winner. because they are so long, if we wait for two more, it might be past october. i am so excited!!!

chubby baby legs galore!

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does this make sense?

(click on pic to make big)

I know that I ovulated. I got a positive test and i had all the spoogies and everything. I even had the "dip" . but now my temparature is not staying up. And my temperature prior to the ovulation was so erratic, who knows what my body is doing?!?!?!

help!

tick tick tick tick

I am not the most patient person. for example, if i buy someone a present for a holiday or birthday, that person gets the present hours, days sometimes months early. i can't wait for anything. it is a curse (although A loves it because she gets multiple presents for every single holiday). so we are squirting in october and i CANNOT WAIT. i am concerned it is not going to work and then it will be next october and we wont have a pooper. i guess this is good practice for when i get pregnant. i will have to wait 9 months to see the pooper, nothing i can do about that.

to make matters worse, i am waiting for a child custody evaluation to come back on one of my clients. who cares you might ask? this is not MY child custody evaluation. i think because i am a newbie attorney, i get more emotionally involved in clients then i should. this one calls me everyday, emails me when he doesn't call me and faxes me when he doesn't email. i really really really want this evaluation to come back in his favor. to be honest, i don't know if i want it to come back in his favor to help him or to help me. is that horrible? if we "win" it makes it that much easier in court. am i horrible?

my mother in law and sister in law are coming down this weekend. i love them. i am super happy! it should be fun. it will be three less days that i can only obsess over the pooper!!!

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The sperimies have landed!

I know it has been a while, but since i dont think anyone reads this, i dont think anyone was missin it ;)

since i last posted a lot has happened. D came to LA and we all went to our local fertility clinic and he gave a deposit. It was nerve racking for us, i can't even imagine how he felt! he flew in at 7:15 and was back at the airport by 11:00 a.m. perfect! we get what we need and he gets to go to work in the afternoon and not loose a ton of money! i had so many questions for the receptionist. they train them well at this place. she had answers to all of my questions. i called the next day and spoke to a lovely british bloke who told me that we got 6 vials out of his deposit and that the motility looked "young and vibrant". yiiiippppeeee! i thought that 6 vials meant three months, i was wrong. apparently six vials is one month in baby spermie land. but at least it is enough for october, our first month. it is coming so fast yet so slow. i cannot wait!!!

so the charting continues. this current cycle is schizophrenic. i am on CD26 and no ovulation. however this morning the spoogies came so i think *fingers crossed* it is going to be ok. i am going to pee on a stick at 11:00 a.m. so wish me luck! not that we are doing anytihng this month but it helps my mind to know that at least i am ovulating. we have so much hope going into october that i want to do all i can to make it work. talk about pressure!

i should get back to work (or start working since I haven't done it at all yet today).

i will be better about this, maybe someone searching for "spermies and spoogies" will find this blog and someone will actually read it! :) I am not getting my hopes up.

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