tips would be greatly appreciated

so i am starting to think of what i should be doing to get myself ready for TTC'ing. I am going to the gym, although not as regularly as I would like. I haven't really done much else. I seem to have forgotten everything that i learned while i was obsessing over this aspect of my life. one thing i am really going to try to do is not obsess. i will not think about how much each time costs and i will not think about what sign the baby would be if this time would work. i am going to meditate prior to the insemination, or at least that is my goal (although i have never meditated before, not really my kind of activity but i am willing to try).

does anyone have any tips, what type of food should i be eating. oh wait, i think i bought a fertility food book, but tips from those who have been through it would be wonderful.

when i was not sleeping due to anxiety (over work and TTC'ing and money) by therapist put me on a sleeping pill. i obviously have to get off of that. hopefully working out at night will be my sleeping pill.

one major concern i have is that A is working crazy hours at her new job. I mean crazy. for example, last night she worked all night, didn't come home. this isnt the first time either. what if it doesn't get better and i do get pregnant and then i am alone at home. even though she works way more than i do, i earn more than she does and cutting out my salary would be a major financial blow. i know i can get disability for a while and that my boss will work with me, but the thought of much less money and no gf at home is daunting.

but no stressing.

only enjoyment.

Off topic- anyone watch The Deadliest Catch? WOW, i am watching it on netflix and it is so great!!!!!

random i know

bye bye

helllo? anyone there?

hi :) i think it has been a gazillion years since i even thought about this blog. unfortunately, that means that means that i have been off the TTC bandwagon for a gazillion years. I think we are going to hop back on though!!!! we have been talking about a lot recently and we asked D if he still would donate and he said "sure". which is typical of him, one word answers to very important questions. we are trying to pay off some debt created from last time we did the TTC so we can rack up the costs again. but this time, i am going to try acupuncture. A got a new job and with it comes much better health insurance and it includes acupuncture.

i am so happy for everyone who is pregnant or has had a little pooper of their own. i was sad for a long time, but now i can honestly say i am happy for everyone!

a long time ago, i talked about a dog that we had bought for A's mom. I loved the dog so much. and now, the dog is ours :) little emmet otter is ours and he is the center of our world. seriously, everything revolves around him. the picture shows how cute it is, so it is worth it, but some people think we are crazy



so anyway, i am going to blog better - blog more - and blog ummmmm right?

bye bye